Life is up 'n' down .... bitter 'n' sweet ....

BORED!!!

2006-12-04T05:04:00.000-08:00

ok..
Mom: i repent. i hope i won't do it again. i dunno the future.

PPL out there:

'HelloS! bck again 2 post.. =)) i luv tis song.. from a

Kelly clarkson
Avril lavinge
H I M
Greenday
Blink182

moment to Britney spears! lol...

im bored.. juz got a lecture by mom... im happy now again! =)) ohoh.. got banned from maple for 11hrs!!!! NOOOOOOOOOOOOoo.. nvm.. its ok.. ouchouch.. my back hurts fm the skiing .. tis prove tt im old. lolx

buais ppl.. looking for images again.. im weird i noe... buais~

WATER- sKIING

2006-12-01T22:27:00.000-08:00

okok... yesterday, i went water-skiiing in EAST COAST!!! OMGOMGOMG.. my arm hurtx!!! it may seems bloody exciting but.. THE truth is tt.. evrytime i ski, i keep falling into the water.. haix. at least i completed a quater of the pond rite? the pond is damn freaking HUGE!! ohh. ENORMOUS i mean.. hav to walk one round back to the station..

NOW MY ARM HURTS!! ARGFHHHHHHHHHH!! oh w8.. i going BBQ soon.. with my counsins i mean.. HAIX! my arm hurtx!!! nvm.. gd exp though..

Also, went IKEA yesterday!! the new one.. OMG.. its huge.. almost got lost.. lolx. at least my jie with mi.. else i sure get lost.. HAIX.. =__________-=;; so bored... finally updated my blog.. lolx! OMG.. so sad... FAITH onli slept for WAD?! 2hrs.. OMG.. hope she finsh her university proj soon. HAIX.. nvm.. bye for now.. if possible, i post my pic of mi skiing.. BUAIS!

Birthday cake

2006-11-08T23:59:00.001-08:00

Birthday cake...11th Birthday!

Pearl Earrings

2006-11-08T23:59:00.000-08:00

Birthday gift...

BDAE!!!

2006-11-08T07:20:00.000-08:00

HELLOS PPL!

im juz so happy 2dae ... ITS MYE BDAE!!! arghh.. waited 365days every year 4 tis day.. heh.. im crapping i noe.... HEHE!

tis is the timeslot 4 2dae..

7am - 1pm => school
1.30pm- 2.30pm=> HMT supplementary
3pm-6pm =>rest... slp in other words
6pm-7pm => put on make-up 4 picture taking (bdae waad) Make-up artist: lydia low (jie!)
7pm- 8pm=> PRESENT SHOPPPING!!!! LOLS!
8pm-9pm => in restaurant eating dinner n cake! restaurant name: Macau express
9pm-11pm => T.V, blogging..ok. now!

haiz... the restaurant is so nice... they can easily c its my bdae n they actually played the bdae song in the restaurant 4 mi.. um .. im shy u noe, EVRYONE IN THE RESTAURANT KNEW TT'S ITS MY BDAE!! OMG .. tis is juz so freaky... haiz...

Presents :

Mom n dad: Earrings...
Jie: ok.. not reallie a present.. BUT.. ok.. she put on make-up 4 mi.. LOLS!
DAD AGAIN! : he promised the bdae gal(MI) tt he will lvl up my maple story character..heh.. so it'll b lvl 47! yay

ok.. sobb.. tt's all.. not much present though... NVM! u noe, i hav to WAX my hair 4 tis celebration.. haiz.. umm.. its weird though.. LOLS!

Make-up consists of:

eyeliner
eyeshadow
lip gloss( it's gross)
mascara(black in colour)
PINK(omg) lipstick.... DOTS!

tt's all .. idiotic though.. haiz. once yr once.. so its ok.. IF evry month liddat.. i can die... HAIZ! ok.. time 2 slp... NITEZ!

BLOGSKIN

2006-10-23T21:15:00.000-07:00

ok ppl who hear music... i NID UR HELP!!!

ok.. im stuck between Since u have been gone and Gone.... both r nice... but i reallie dunnno which one to put as blog song.. ok.. announcement over..

ok... wad should i post? ok... how is my blogskin... its not like last time liao rite? not too squashed but.. is it ok?

AH!!!! TMR RESULTS DAY!!!!!!!! NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!!!>__< oh no! hope that i don't get band 3...... haizzz...... ok.. tis is a short post so ... nvm lah... ok! bye ppl~

blogg

2006-10-20T04:28:00.000-07:00

ok... those ppl who visits mye blog last time SHOULD have noticed the change in mye blog.. =__=;;(unless ur blind)..
ok.. wad should i post? sum ahmahs wan mi to post.>__<... ok..

can u all plsplspls gimme comment on wad to do.. mye current song is iinto the rush and it suits mye blog.. now mj wan mi to change the song.. NOW WAD?!!!

ok... yay.. holidays again.. sobb.. have to go back 2 sch on Wed n Thurs... DAYS AFTER EXAMS R JUZ A PURE WASTE OF TIME. wad to do.. sit down there.. (n slp for mi =) ) listen to teacher blahblahblah.. yawn.. maths hw i finish liao.. during chinese lesson.. teacher like don't care (which is gd to mi) ...

yawn... IM JUST SO BORED-ED.. im the bored queen.. im juz pure bored.. living in a colourless world of mye own is boring.. ok... *yawns again*.. can't w8 4 church again.. at least more fun then staying at hm or sch.. at home.. im either on mye bed slping(duh) or in front of comp.. in sch im juz listening to sum teachers toking.. yawn.. as u can c, im juz a pure sleepyhead... i LUV to slp.. tt's why i always yawn...

oh yah.. im a sleepy gal tt nids 11hrs slp.... 9 hrs slping b4 sch start.. 2 hrs slping again after sch.. yay.. ok.. im bored.. tmr spent mye time in front of comp again... my fav activities are:

SLEEP!!!
Yawn
b bored(though i dun wan to..but it bcame a hobby)
live in front of the comp
tok crapp
go church
praying is considred rite?
daydream.. like wadd mdm Shubana said, daydreamer...

ok.. wanna noe wad i daydream abt? ha! not gonna tell u.. ehh.. not crushes though.. im not tt siao.

examsss

2006-10-15T04:12:00.000-07:00

ok! im gonna resurect my blog. or wadeva u spell it.

The exams r ok... but i reallie do hope tt i will get 80 - 100... it's impossible i noe.. but lets pray 4 miracles..

maths is ok... eng is ok... chinese is hardd cos my chinese sux alot! hope huang lao shi didn't come to visit my blog though... SCIENCE! the dreadful one... i SLIPPED A QUESTION OUT DUE TO CARELESSNESS!!!! ARGH!!! My maths no time 2 finish... left 1/2 question... missed 3 marks!!! i was like doin until (the question) 8 pm which the question is 10 pm.. ARGH!!!

Nvm.. relax! it's over! suan le...

Service 2dae is gd.. i luv it! im in a gd mood 2dae.. SO pls than make mi unhappy...cos finally i feel so carefree!

my sunday sch teacher finally knew wad's the meaning of Hope after 46 yrs.. it is not abt exams, BoyGirlRelationship(wad my mom called it) , studies or wealth.. its the hope to eternal life in which the Gospel says...

ok.. if anyone wan mi to tell the whole story, email mi..

Im so bored.. finally can b free! free of relationship probs, crushes, evryting. never felt so free b4!

but . studies. another prob.. piano lessons... another class to take.. i juz wanna b FREE! totally STRESS FREE!!

according to Sun sch teacher, pray. read the Gospel. best anti stress reliever. i shall try it. if it's gd, i will post. ok?

personality test

2006-09-21T04:03:00.000-07:00

http://www.quizbox.com/personality/test82.aspx

Your view on yourself:

You are down-to-earth and people like you because you are so straightforward. You are an efficient problem solver because you will listen to both sides of an argument before making a decision that usually appeals to both parties.

The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:

You are a true romantic. When you are in love, you will do anything and everything to keep your love true.

Your readiness to commit to a relationship:

You are ready to commit as soon as you meet the right person. And you believe you will pretty much know as soon as you might that person.

The seriousness of your love:

You like to flirt and behave seductively. The opposite sex finds this very attractive, and that's why you'll always have admirers hanging off your arms. But how serious are you about choosing someone to be in a relationship with?

Your views on education

Education is very important in life. You want to study hard and learn as much as you can.

The right job for you:

You have plenty of dream jobs but have little chance of doing any of them if you don't focus on something in particular. You need to choose something and go for it to be happy and achieve success.

How do you view success:

You are afraid of failure and scared to have a go at the career you would like to have in case you don't succeed. Don't give up when you haven't yet even started! Be courageous.

What are you most afraid of:

You are afraid of things that you cannot control. Sometimes you show your anger to cover up how you feel.

Who is your true self:

You are full of energy and confidence. You are unpredictable, with moods changing as quickly as an ocean. You might occasionally be calm and still, but never for long.

song

2006-09-17T23:44:00.000-07:00

hee... i LOVE TIS SONG!!! dunno whether u like or not.

Exam

2006-08-29T04:38:00.000-07:00

OMG... *sobsobsobsobsobsobsobsobsob* ... i've done HORRIBLY 4 mye exam.... haiz.. blame myself 4 not studying hard enough..... so sad..... it's THE WORST YEAR EVA!!!!! anyway, i can onli blame myself 4 not studying hard enough.... i should b working harder than usual now...... haiz... i should b hardworking from THE START OF THE YEAR!!!!! haiz.... this is my sad story...

1. dun study wen free
2. dun do assesment THE WHOLE YR!!!!
3. onli do comp....
4. always relax...
5. dun work hard enough...

Ok... is summary, i m lazy... MUZ WORK 10x HARDER 4 SA2!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!1

Lovewreked(sp?)

2006-08-27T06:09:00.000-07:00

ok... today... wen 4 a movie.... called... the above titled.... ok... i reallie felt like that guy IN THE MOVIE ... called Ryan.... sometimes.... anyway.... u all should not noe this....

~end of post~

2006-08-17T19:24:00.000-07:00

OK.... wat should i post?

okokok..... sum1 scoldin mi liao... ok... short post....

ok.... my elearn still haven finish .... arghh..... still got 10 more 2 go.... haiz..... *pouts*...nvm... gtg... bb =)

webbies that i like

2006-08-16T20:54:00.000-07:00

ok... this r the webbies...

www.quizilla.com

www.lollipop-angelz.blogspot.com

www.yahoo.com

www.jocelyn2005.blogspot.com (ok... my mom's blog)(i dun like but she will kill me if i dun like)

www.youtube.com

maple lvl 40

2006-08-16T08:19:00.000-07:00

YAY! now that i m lvl 40, i decided to win marie's lvl... haha ... ok, i felt quite sad today cosafter my mom came, my character died.... haiz........ what a sad story...... haiz....... ok....

i felt like putting a password block ... haiz... dunno how to put... its that i write a Q. , than u if answer correctly, u get to go in , isn't that fun? =) onli my jieije now how 2 put.... sad loh... she didn't teach me... =X

2006-08-11T04:40:00.000-07:00

WHOA!!!! My mom soo bad... go read her blog... she wrote if she die ... she wanna die with her beloved.... soo bad! Drag ppl 2 die also.... haiz.... very stubborn... she dun wanna change.... horrible.....

SCH!!!

2006-08-09T23:51:00.000-07:00

OH NO!!!! tmr got schhh..... i haven done my hw yet... shh ... dun tell my MOM n DAD!!! i wanna use comp 12 hrs per day!!!! nvmm...

[["I Write Sins Not Tragedies"]]

2006-08-07T21:32:00.000-07:00

Oh, well imagine, as I'm pacing the pews in a church corridor,and I can't help but to hear, no I can't help but to hear an exchanging of words:"What a beautiful wedding! What a beautiful wedding!" says a bridesmaid to a waiter."And yes, but what a shame, what a shame, the poor groom's bride is a whore.

"I'd chime in with a "Haven't you people ever heard of closing a goddamn door?!"No, it's much better to face these kinds of things with a sense of poise and rationality.I'd chime in, "Haven't you people ever heard of closing a goddamn door?!"No, it's much better to face these kinds of things with a sense of...

Well in fact, well I'll look at it this way, I mean technically our marriage is savedWell this calls for a toast, so pour the champagneOh! Well in fact, well I'll look at it this way, I mean technically our marriage is savedWell this calls for a toast, so pour the champagne, pour the champagne

I'd chime in with a "Haven't you people ever heard of closing a goddamn door?!"No, it's much better to face these kinds of things with a sense of poise and rationality.I'd chime in, "Haven't you people ever heard of closing a goddamn door?!"No, it's much better to face these kinds of things with a sense of poise and rationality.

Again...

I'd chime in, "Haven't you people ever heard of closing a goddamn door?!"No, it's much better to face these kinds of things with a sense of poise and rationality.I'd chime in, "Haven't you people ever heard of closing a goddamn door?!"No, it's much better to face these kinds of things with a sense of poise and rationality.

Again...

2006-08-07T05:14:00.000-07:00

wow... my home is now the topic 'bout Does Jacob saw Jesus? ... wahh... my mum not flexible in recieving infos... than dad insist his way.... wah.... my wont listen... haiz

LIMBLESS

2006-08-06T19:58:00.000-07:00

Well, its my mum hu told mi 2 write this...

Ok... in the concert, we saw a legless, armless man praising God.... we were so touched by it cos he still thank God 4 everytink..... ok.... that's all ! =P

Concert

2006-08-06T19:37:00.000-07:00

WOW! Attended 20 th festival of praise concert yesterday.... its so nice... im ok with Don moen songs but i prefer the CCC worship band cos it's a partial "rock" song concert ... anyway... i like the concert except the talks 4 business... =)

"Click"

2006-08-05T05:29:00.000-07:00

Euu.... the movie " Click" i watch so interesting but disgusting... I tink its better if p5 students dun watch.... it's "nice" but Euuuu ..... =( ... hopefully can watch movie tmr

baby

2006-08-04T18:53:00.000-07:00

OMG! i found out that i look so ugly wen i was 1mth old..... found my pic in the passport of mom's..... arghhh.... i look like an ugly lump of FAT !!!! i look so piggy .... then i saw my 4 yrs old pic.... wahhhh..... at least much better! i look a lot prettier.... at least not so fat n chubby .....

Blur queen

2006-08-04T07:29:00.000-07:00

wahh!!! i watch wrong movie!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! (with my sis) ....

It all happened wen my mom gave us " Click" movie tickets n my sister the blur queen n i the blur princess wen 2 the wrong hall n watch the movie...n wahh.... my sis thought that the lake house is the advertisment n i told her its not... den she dun blieve n ,u noe, its my 1st time goin 4 a movie w/o my parents n anyway, we watch a 2nd time "The lake House" ... after mum noe, she went quite mad cos she tinks that its a waste of money if u watch a movie a 2nd time..... wahhhhh!!!!! anyway, i m not a crybaby so i shall stop "wahhh" -ing.... lol ...

2006-08-04T00:13:00.000-07:00

Hii ppl! Today I'm so happy cos today is FRIDAY!!! Yay! nxt wk gonna b a short wk so i dun nid to get up so early! yay!!!!! Anyway, today's PE made me so tired... arghh... *yawn* .... i tink now i gtg n take a short nap b4 mum comes!

Science

2006-08-03T02:24:00.000-07:00

Wahhh..!!!! My science practical marks so low... but ok.... i gt more than 7.. so dun worry, i didn't fail... =( wahhhhhhhhhhhhh .....

FEVER!!!!!!!! =(

2006-07-18T03:14:00.000-07:00

HEY PPL!

Today.... or yesterday.... i had fever..... arghhh.....

yesterday, i had high fever which is about 40 degrees..... arghhh.... then, today i went to the doctor and its 38 degrees.... my mum so nice.... she take care of me for 23 hrs 59 mins.... so nice of her right? she put a towel on my head then she do her blog n all the stuffs beside me.... so nice..... =) Anyway... i've got 2 days MC.... oh no! i feel so tired now.......... haiz..... soo tired...

2006-07-16T05:37:00.000-07:00

Wow ! ND parade so nice... i like the fireworks ..... the night performance are alot nicer than the day one...

James 4

2006-07-13T03:16:00.000-07:00

James 4
Submit Yourselves to God 1What causes fights and quarrels among you? Don't they come from your desires that battle within you? 2You want something but don't get it. You kill and covet, but you cannot have what you want. You quarrel and fight. You do not have, because you do not ask God. 3When you ask, you do not receive, because you ask with wrong motives, that you may spend what you get on your pleasures. 4You adulterous people, don't you know that friendship with the world is hatred toward God? Anyone who chooses to be a friend of the world becomes an enemy of God. 5Or do you think Scripture says without reason that the spirit he caused to live in us envies intensely?[a] 6But he gives us more grace. That is why Scripture says:

"God opposes the proud ,
but gives grace to the humble."[b]

7Submit yourselves, then, to God. Resist the devil, and he will flee from you. 8Come near to God and he will come near to you. Wash your hands, you sinners, and purify your hearts, you double-minded. 9Grieve, mourn and wail. Change your laughter to mourning and your joy to gloom. 10Humble yourselves before the Lord, and he will lift you up.

11Brothers, do not slander one another. Anyone who speaks against his brother or judges him speaks against the law and judges it. When you judge the law, you are not keeping it, but sitting in judgment on it. 12There is only one Lawgiver and Judge, the one who is able to save and destroy. But you—who are you to judge your neighbor?

Boasting About Tomorrow

13Now listen, you who say, "Today or tomorrow we will go to this or that city, spend a year there, carry on business and make money." 14Why, you do not even know what will happen tomorrow. What is your life? You are a mist that appears for a little while and then vanishes. 15Instead, you ought to say, "If it is the Lord's will, we will live and do this or that." 16As it is, you boast and brag. All such boasting is evil. 17Anyone, then, who knows the good he ought to do and doesn't do it, sins.

Footnotes:James 4:5 Or that God jealously longs for the spirit that he made to live in us; or that the Spirit he caused to live in us longs jealously James 4:6 Prov. 3:34

GOOOOO HHHHEEEERRRRREEEE

2006-07-13T03:08:00.000-07:00

Go this website ... so touching .... i love it...

http://www.bible-codes.org/theflowergls.swf

Harry Potter

2006-07-10T04:01:00.000-07:00

Arghh ....

Jus borrowed 2 thick books of harry potter ........... arghh..... so huge !!!!!!!!!!! It's like 5kg lah..... it the very thickone .... and i am supposed to finish them within 2 weeks ..... nevermind.... i am quite a fast reader.... so not so problematic ..... =)

2006-07-10T03:54:00.000-07:00

NOOOOO!!!!!

My dad just went to Japan 4 work .... Sobsob....... I'm so sad ..... he's goin for 3 weeks u noe!!!!!!!!!! Oh no!!!!!! He won't b able to help me play my maple .... arghhhhh ...... i'm so sad ..... and oh no!!!! My pen-pal, Bran , found my picture !!!!! Arghhh .... NOOOOOO ....=I ......

Well, this postin i all the current bad news .... =((((((

2006-07-06T01:12:00.000-07:00

Hi ppl!
This is a picture of my soap that i mould... Last week, i told u all already right? I dun hav any mould i could think of so this is only showing the size of the pic ..... actually , in real life, my hand isn't soo short !=(

Sims city ... =)

2006-07-03T00:11:00.000-07:00

Today, or yesterday, my Sim city character got pregnant .... wow ... than today .... she gave birth ................ so cool ....

But my character always put the baby boy on the floor .... even when i gave the baby a cot .... so naughty..............

Oh ... this is only FYI ........

Stud

2006-07-01T08:52:00.000-07:00

Wow!

God is soosoo marvellous!

I lost my diamond ear stud, ( the diamoond part) and i look everywhere and i was like so frantic 'cause my mum won't buy me anymore... then ... i prayed to God and prayed again .... then i prayed the most sincerely and ... guess what ! I look beside my pillow and found my ear stud.... (before that i look there but cannot find) it was so shocking ...

I prayed : Dear Lord .. I know you are a miracle worker... i know you can help me as i had lost my diamond stud ... LORD FATHER ... i pray this in my most sincere heart .... I pray in Jesus name , Amen ...

And i found my stud ... Wow ... i experience this many many times already .... more than 10 times in fact ...

When i was about 8 yrs old that time, i was very very forgetful ... then there was 1 time when i lost my spectacles.. i was so frantic ... then the next moment , i found my specs ... what a miracle worker!

Life Science

2006-07-01T02:42:00.000-07:00

YaY!

Yesterday I went to school and study life science ... so fun! My friends Claudia, Deseree, Marianne and I made Rose perfume and soap!

After we put the Ethanol in the perfume, we seal the conical flask ... Then 4 the soap, we put water then dunno wat chemical and some oil as fatty acid then everyone started stirring ( Some argued to stir the thing) then the mixture that is light in color turn into like so milky( in a way like condensed milk, so thick)... then we pour inside a container...

Our teacher said next week then can start moulding the soap... then the perfume will be ready by then...

But, the sad thing is that we have to smell 11 types of perfume!!!! Arghh .... i smell like 4 only then my nose like so painful ....

Here are the 11 essential oil we would try:

Grapefruit: Helps in digestion and weight control

Jasmine: Helps dry,greasy, irrated or sensitive skin, muscle spasm, sprains, coughs and nervous exhaustion

Lavender:For burns,rasher and insomia.It is calming , anti-inflammatoryand anti-infectious

Lemon grass: It may be beneficialfor the digestive system

Peppermint:It can be used for asthma, fever, flatulence, headache and nausea

Rose:It is anti-infectious and prevents scarring. It may help with asthma,tuberculosis,skin desease,wounds,ulcer,sprains,and wrinkles.

White musk: Reinvigorating and aids attraction of the opposite sex

Vanilla:Reduces stress and anxiety

SandalWood: Soothing and moisturizing for cracked,itchy and dry skin.Also used traditionally to treat chronic genito-urinary tract infections

Chamomile: Helps boils,acne,rashes and eczema.It is also used for hair care , burns, cuts,toothaches,teething pains, inflamed joints,insomia,migraine headaches and stress

Citronella: This oil is used to control excessive perspiration.It can also be used for fatigue and headaches.It is also a natural insect repellent

All these are extracted from my aroma chemistry file =)

I like life science rather than any other subject ...

My friend Priscilla use cinammon to make her perfume .... my friend Christianne used pandan to make hers ...

So fun!

Sleep !

2006-06-14T09:46:00.000-07:00

Hii ppl !

Juz when 2 my church agape group blog in church ! Well , Can u believe it ?!!! I stayed till 12.45am juz to use the computer !!!!! Ahh !!!! Nvm ..... i always stay up till 11pm.... So, this is NOT a torture to mi ! I ever stay up till 3.45am to watch the movie " Jewel In The Palace " with my sis .... so nice..... ohh ..... I gotta sleep or i will surely have Panda Eyes ...

10pm: ^-^

11pm: @_@

12am: =_=

12.45: Z_Z

7am(wake up): 0.0

Alright, enough craps ... Gdnight

ZZZZZZZZZZZZzzzzzzzzzzzzzZZZZZZZZZZZZzzzzzzzzzzzz

Fairy Land I

2006-06-03T00:48:00.000-07:00

Fairy Land I
William Shakespeare
OVER hill, over dale,
Thorough bush, thorough brier,
Over park, over pale,
Thorough flood, thorough fire,
I do wander everywhere,
Swifter than the moone's sphere;
And I serve the fairy queen,
To dew her orbs upon the green:
The cowslips tall her pensioners be;
In their gold coats spots you see;
Those be rubies, fairy favours,
In those freckles live their savours:
I must go seek some dew-drops here,
And hang a pearl in every cowslip's ear.

Fairy Land II

2006-06-03T00:42:00.000-07:00

William Shakespeare
Fairy Land II

YOU spotted snakes with double tongue,
Thorny hedgehogs, be not seen
Newts and blind-worms, do no wrong;
Come not near our fairy queen.
Philomel, with melody,
Sing in our sweet lullaby;
Lulla, lulla, lullaby; lulla, lulla, lullaby!
Never harm,
Nor spell nor charm,
Come our lovely lady nigh;
So, good night, with lullaby.
Weaving spiders, come not here;
Hence, you long-legg'd spinners, hence!
Beetles black, approach not near;
Worm nor snail, do no offence.
Philomel, with melody,
Sing in our sweet lullaby;
Lulla, lulla, lullaby; lulla, lulla, lullaby!
Never harm,Nor spell nor charm,
Come our lovely lady nigh;
So, good night, with lullaby.

Left with a Rose

2006-06-03T00:03:00.000-07:00

Left with a Rose

You left me here
With a rose in my hand,
Tears on my cheek,
And cold rain all around.

I never knew until today
That you were about to leave.
But it was already too late;
You left without a sound.

I was going to meet you
Secretly, beneath the silver stars,
And I did not care if it rained
Because I knew you would be there.

As the minutes dripped away,
And you did not appear,
I nervously wondered why;
This pain I could not bear.

It was then I saw a rose,
Its crimson petals beautiful
As it glistened with a coat of rain;
You had left it just for me.

I clutched it very tightly
And realized that you were gone.
Somehow, I believe you left
Because my love you did not see.

If you were so blind
To all of my romantic dreams,
To the love I held for only you,
You have reawakened my dreadful fears.

Now I must forget you
Though it may be hard to achieve;
Somehow, your face will fade with time,
And my eyes will dry of its tears.

So here I stand, alone,
Silly girl chasing the impossible,
Trying to forget you,
Wondering how long it will take.

But I cannot discard this rose,
Within, my last shred of hope
That one day you will be there
Returning just for my sake.

HEHE !

Our secret romance

2006-06-01T21:38:00.000-07:00

Hold my hand so gently,
I yearn to hear your voice,
For you to gaze into my eyes intently,
And to know I am loved.

Your image distorts,
As the ripples flow through it,
You stand on the other side of the lake,
Where it is more strongly lit,
You walk in the light,
I lurk in darkness,
And I have to fight,
To feel your caress.

You said out love will last,
And I was not to fret,
Iam your future present and past,
but why is our love a secret?

You have your friends and your status,
I'am the oddball the freak,
You said your happy at how fate should hold us,
But I saw you brush your lips,
Across that pretty girls cheek.

She pulled you in for more,
My heart broke in two,
You didn't know I saw,
but you understood I knew.
For that night I was alone,
Alone in the house,
The blade cut through flesh and bone,
And then moved to my wrists.

A dying puddle on the floor,
Surrounded my body,
The pain I bore,
Flooded away with the blood.

You arrived too late,
You saw the note in my hand,
You fell into a trance,
As you unravelled it,
And read the words,
My secret romance.

I still watch your reflection,
Even now.
Dancing on the water,
I always hope you will look,
Into the depths where I lie
Now,And I think how cruel of fate to chance,
The putting together of Ying and Yang,
My secret romance.

Japanese Quotes

2006-06-01T08:38:00.000-07:00

A single arrow is easily broken, but not ten in a bundle.
A statement once let loose cannot be caught by four horses.
An ant hole may collapse an embankment.
Better to be a crystal and to be broken, than to be a tile upon the housetop.
Breeding rather than birth.
Darkness reigns at the foot of the lighthouse.
Don't rejoice over him that goes, before you see him that comes.
Fortune will call at the smiling gate.
He is not poor that hath not feel content.
If I peddle salt, it rains; if I peddle flour, the wind blows.

American quotes

2006-06-01T08:15:00.000-07:00

A benevolent man should allow a few faults in himself to keep his friends in countenance.
A mill cannot grind with water that is past.
Be in general virtuous, and you will be happy.
Beggars can never be bankrupt.
Calm weather in June, sets the corn in tune.
Each day provides its own gifts.
Feel for others, in your pocket.
Folks like the truth that hits their neighbour.
Good weight and measure, are heaven's treasure.

Great trees keep little ones down.

Falling in love <3

2006-06-01T08:00:00.000-07:00

To fall in love is always easy to start a relationship is always simple...
To build it, is always tough... to maintain it, is 'better said than done'...
To break off, is 'easier said than done'...
To remain friends after u broke off, is never possible...
To forget the memories is 'always doing but never succeeding'...
To heal the pain within is hard and tough and never near simple...
But one has to try to heal your own heart...
The heart belongs to u...
If u don't heal it and have a space for someone to walk in,
The heart will always be sealed,
Memories will never be forgotten,
The pain will never go,
And u will never move on from where u started...
People take wrong directions all the time..
If not,how do we ever realise our mistakes..
And make better choices..
Late it might be for your life so far,
But it is never too late for your life ahead..
Maybe through wrong directions,
You made the wrong choices..
But does it mean that through the right directions,
You would always make the right choices?
If everything seems like a big trial..
Hold on to your faith..
For at least,you had a chance to live a choice..

I died long time ago ( a touching poem)

2006-06-01T04:21:00.000-07:00

"I Died A Long Time Ago, Didn't You Know?(Touching Poem)"

There was once a small region,
And in the small region,
Was a school,
Covered in mist,
And the only light you will see,
Is the light coming from,
The moon.
There was a gravel pavement,
That leads you,
To a double metal door.
Inside the doors,
You will see a line,
Of classrooms.
And inside them,
In one thats located,
At the corner.
You will see a pale faced girl,
With long black hair.
Whos always staring,
At the boy infront of her,
Wishing he would smile at her.
But as always,
He would return a glare,
And shove her on the shoulder,
But not hard enough to hurt.
At least not hard enough,
To hurt here physically,
But hard enough,
To damage her mentally.
Though his rejections,
Had always felt so painful,
She is never angry at him,
Knowing that this is the,
Punishment to be such a fool,
To him when they were younger.
She knew she deserves this,
But she knew that one day,
He will feel the same.
That hope was,
What kept her alive,
She achieved honor role,
Got the highest grade in class,
Just because he called her stupid.
Sometimes she wonders,
Can a guy change so much of you?
Last year,
Her mother was yelling at her,
To finish studying for,
Her math test.
But she watched television instead.
While this year,Just because of a couple,
Of stupid comments,
She works herself to her bones.
Just to prove to him,
That she is not what he believes.
One day she was walking,
Through her crime filled hall,
Then she saw it,
Her life was hugging that girl,
With the great academics grades.
Her eyes felt,
Like they were about to explode,
With uncontrollable tears.
But she held on,
And went home.
Anger and depression,
Had fully consumed her.
What does she have,
That I don't?
Good grades I got that,
Is it because she got a 98,
While I got a 96.
Pretty face,
I look way better than her.
At least don't have glasses,
Or have freckled skin.
What am I missing?
She asked between sobs and screams
So she wrote a letter to him,
Saying that she had always,
Loved him,
What am I missing,
That she has but not me?
The boy took the letter,
Read it without any emotions,
Then threw it back at her face.
And said,
There is nothing you are missing,
But you have always,
Wanted more,
You have never realized,
The uglyness of your soul.
But that girl I love,
Will always be better than you.
He said infront of everyone.
The air was tense,
The girl felt as if she was dying,
Her heart felt heavy,
So she ran from the crowd,
Away from all,
The emerging laughter.
For once,
All her life,
She felt that she wanted,
The boy to die,
And that girl too.
So she took out a shiny knife,
One she had never noticed.
And pressed it lightly to her skin
Thinking that a little,
Won't be that bad.
But as she watched the blood,
Flow out.
Her anger increased more and more.
And the deeper it went,
From a thin line,
To a river on her wrist.
She felt weak,
And lost track,
So she fell with the knife,
Tightly in her hand.
She awoke in a hospital,
She looked around,
Her parents where now where,
To be seen,
And neither were her friends.
But her desk was filled with,
Get well cards.
But she saw a particular one,
It was from the love of her life.
In the card it wrote,
You are weaker than I thought,
Just because of a few comments,
You try to kill yourself,
This card is not a get well card,
This card is where I say,
We can never be together,
Because we were meant to be,
Not after how you used to treat me
So here is were I tell you,
My grudge for you,
Will never go away.
So after this,
Do me a favour,
And stop trying to get attention.
The girl dropped the card,
Tears were rolling down,
Her pale face.
And took out a piece of paper,
Then she started to write.
The only I treated you that way,
Was because I never knew,
The feeling love before,
So I replaced it,
With the feeling I have,
Expierienced the most,
In my life.
I am sorry,
But I can't change the things,
I have did to you,
In the past.
After that,
She ripped her bandages,
And let her life's blood drip out.
The boy got the letter,
The next day,
But simply did not care,
So he threw it in the trash can.
The girl went back,
To school a couple days later.
Everybody asked if she was alright
She smiled and nodded.
Years have passed,
The boy and his girlfriend,
Were going to get married soon.
The boy invited everyone,
Of his old classmates,
All except for her.
But the wedding news sliped out,
And to the ears of the girl.
On the night of the wedding,
Everything was cheerful,
Everything was great,
Until they heard the news,
That she was found dead,
She had killed herself,
In front of everybody.
It turns out,
That she silently snuck into,
The wedding church,
And onto the highest floor,
Then jumped down,
The exact time as her love's ring,
Was put onto his fourth finger.
In her hand,
Lies another piece of paper,
That wrote,
You never noticed me,you never cared,
Not even though I nearly died,
I still moved on,
After you left me in the cold,
Still hoping you will change,
Your opinion of me.
But I guess it was foolish for me,
To believe it.
So I am going to make you care,
I am going to be seen,
Lying in a pool of blood,
In front of all those,
You have dumped me infront.
Just on your wedding day.
You never noticed,
How much you have hurt me,
So I am going to be noticed today,
Right on your lucky day.
You may think I died today,
But in truth,
I died a long time ago,
Didn't you know?
It was because of you,
And the feeling called love.
The first time you killed me,
You killed my soul,
Now will be my body.
But I guess,
Some poeple will hold on,
To grudges forever.
The boy was shocked,
Not by her death,
But that someone died,
The day of his wedding,
And right infront the building.
So the girl was correct,
He had held on his grudge,
Not even the day till she died,
And the girl held on her love,
Not even till the day she died.
The next day,
The newspapers were flying,
On the front page it said,
Harvard student,
Found dead infront of,
Wedding church,
By suicide and depression.....
Though a long time has passed,
Since her passing,
The boy was often had foul luck,
And everytime something,
Horrible happens,
He sees the face of his,
Lover that he killed,
Both inside and outside......

I don't think you all have the patience to read right? .... but , it's so touching ! I spent almost an hour just to make it more interesting by adding colours to it and spread it .... = )

New blogskin

2006-06-01T04:19:00.000-07:00

hehe .... now changed my address and blogskin ....... anyway , this is not as eeky as the previous skin ..... i'm gettin real bored ....... no tag .............. haiz .....= I ............... Anyway , gotta b more active .......

Nth

2006-05-02T05:41:00.000-07:00

Oh ....... i'm so sleepy .....

Now , Have 2 go swimming ...... yay ! = ) ....

I've always love swimming ..... dun care whether wanna sleep or not .... so seeya ppl !

hi

2006-04-21T18:11:00.000-07:00

Hi ppl ,

Tis is mi new blog .....